Welcome to my blog spot. So my very first post. Let me start out by telling you a little bit about my family. Me & Tim have known each other for Oh feels like forever. But for the record its been 11 years ago that we met. Not to go into to many details of our personal life we finally tied the knot on May 19th 2012. I am one lucky girl to be able to not only meet my best friend but to be able to spend the rest of my life on earth going through this journey called life with my soul mate.

          We have decided after much thought for the past year to embark on the journey of trying to adopt. I have never been so excited and scared at the same time. From the time I was just a little girl I knew I wanted to be a mother. To have a little child to call my own. To love something so unconditionally. To bear witness to you wailing out your first cry, learning how to walk, and saying your first words. Teaching you how to read and write. Watching you go on your first date and drive for the first time. Leaving to go to college and then meeting your future soul mate. I am excited about this journey that maybe my ultimate wishes and dreams will finally be fulfilled. I am scared not that I will not be an absolute wonderful mother but that after all the time and money and energy spent on pursuing this dream someone may not ever choose us. I am certain that anyone that has choose this journey regardless of the reason behind it has possibly felt this at some point in their adoption journey. I know this process is trying at times. That every ounce of our beings will be tested on levels we never thought imaginable. After much research and deliberation we finally choose an open adoption through IAC. We only want what is best for a child. To give them a life that would far exceed what their birth parents would want for them. I hope that this journey will lead me to build a friendship with a birth mom that last a lifetime.

         Since we have just begun this journey we have not even done our home study just yet.  I guess you could say I am in the sticker shock stage of the adoption process. Not due to price but due to the requirements that they impose on adopting families. I know this is just the first hurdle and we plan to tackle it head on. I look forward to the day that we receive that phone call that we have been matched. But the highlight of this process will be when I hold that bundle of joy in my arms and finally can say I AM A MOM.